Life Lessons.

This is going to be one of the best times I will be able to describe this, so in other words, it's going to hit a nerve. Just bear with me. But because I do not have that raw, hurt, painful feeling right now, I'm going to put a few links in here to other things that I wrote while being depressed just to help you understand.

About a month ago, I went through a period of a week where I was absolutely depressed, crying all night, not sleeping, barely talking, and just not feeling good about anything. Though my reasons changed throughout the week, the one that started it all was my sister. Everyone can say that they love their sibling(s) and they enjoy having one. Only children even say they wish they did have one. The majority of the time, I hate mine. http://grasshoppergirl.deviantart.com/art/My-Life-124239779 Please read author's comments for some reasons why. So one evening while I was trying to make my parents understand something for once, my mom told me, "You cannot change who someone else is."

As a result, not much has changed. I finally realized I was being stupid and needed to do what was best for me - a lesson I am still learning. I got away from my family by going to a sleepover and came back feeling better. Until my sister hurt me again. She will never see how bad it feels or how often I cry because she will never pay attention to anyone but her, but I know it is something I cannot change.

http://grasshoppergirl.deviantart.com/art/Letters-to-Myself-139075850